Life Without God
As I lay down thinking about my life, so much screwed up, why did God leave me alone and why did he leave me in such a miserable state. Although God spoke to me couple of weeks before but now I feel like I have lost a connection with God. I feel so hopeless I feel like an atheist going to bed without even thinking about his creator.
It’s 2:14am midnight. I’m not feeling sleepy and i’m still pondering over my life. I have no words to explain how miserable my life is. Although I pray to God it seems like God does not want to listen my prayers. I feel like crying but I can’t cry.
In a few weeks I have to preach a sermon at college. I think I can’t do it if i remain in this situation and I don’t want to go on stage and preach God’s without having God in me.
I cry out to God asking him to vindicate me from my suffering but I guess God has turned his ear away from me.
I cant even express my emotion. Don’t even understand what is happening with me.I’m trapped in something which I don’t understand.
My prayer is God I need you more and please do not go away from me.
But deep inside my heart i believe that God is preparing me for something Special.